I wrote, early in the fall, about my first experiences with the antidepressant drug Cipralex. I think it’s time for a little bit of an update now that I’ve been taking it for three and a half months. Here are ten reasons why I’m still taking it:
- No noticeable side effects. I was prepared for something, but I haven’t noticed any!
- I feel logical and reasonable most of the time.
- I sleep. I fall asleep, I stay sleeping, and I wake up refreshed. No more diabolical nightmares, no more racing thoughts, no more crying myself to sleep. Some days I feel as though this is a miracle.
- I am generally happy. By happy, I mean content, grateful, aware of blessings and goodness, optimistic, and cheerful.
- I smile a lot more. I even laugh! Sometimes daily. I see a lot more humour in the everyday.
- My creativity has increased and I find myself with more ideas and better poetry. I’m even debating taking up a hobby or two that I deserted years ago.
- I am truly enjoying my life for the first time since I was a child. I very rarely wish I could escape my life, probably no more than would be normal for most people. 😀
- I can be present to and with my kids. Consequently I enjoy them, can respond to them in a loving manner, and find our lives to be much more emotionally calm than before.
- There is a calm, loving voice inside my self now. I can listen to it, believe the truth it speaks, and let go of negative thoughts and emotions.
- Most interestingly, I am far more aware of God’s presence. I wake in the morning with praise in my soul for the miracle of life this drug has given me. I am able to pray, to find meaning in my Bible, to see God’s presence in other people more easily, and to be still and calm. I understand now why God caused the curtain in the Temple to rip in two at the moment when Jesus died. In a way I cannot explain, a dark veil that shrouded my perception and heart has been torn to shreds and I am so often blinded by the goodness and love God has created the world with. I often think a great deal about the spiritual significance of taking a drug that alters my very person so extremely, but I have not come to any conclusions aside from gratitude.
Been on Cipralex 20mg for 8 or 9 weeks. LOVE IT! Very minor side effects in the beginning. Nothing I couldn’t deal with after having 3 kids and going through a divorce.
I’m so glad cipralex is working for you! Having kids, even in the most ideal circumstances, is traumatic! And a divorce…well, that’s it’s own beast, and one I’ve not experienced. But I expect that’s traumatic too. After being on Cipralex for over a year, I’m still doing well and thinking that next spring I’ll try cutting my dose back by 5mg. I hope the side effects, however slight they be, eventually go away. Mine did after about 4 weeks. All the best, Lisa!
I have tried Cipralex before as well, and I agree – worked well on me!
I’m so glad it worked for you too. Makes such difference if you have a new way to process life!
I’m so glad you shared this, Kathrina and that your journey with Cipralex is going so well.
Blessings,
Lisa
Thanks, Lisa. You’re always so encouraging. Re-reading this post, I realized that I may have made my life sound rosy-perfect. It isn’t, but it’s so much better than it used to be that I often feel like I don’t have anything to complain about.
Wow! This is fabulous! It’s great to know what a difference this kind of intervention can make!
Thanks, Holly. You’re one of my major encouragements in life. 😀